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TGIF

So something new happened yesterday.

Last night rather.

I actually slept!!

Sure I was in a fair amount of pain that hasn’t changed but I mean I really slept like if it weren’t for my pain management alarms waking me up I believe I would have slept more than the normal four hours!

I also am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel as in, this pain may end soon kinda light.  

I was so happy when I woke up and realized that it was past 3 am in the morning then the pain started in again and I didn’t even mind it!

So that happened and then yesterday you know how I was in a “baking mood?

yeah I must have just been in a oh I want to look at blogs and articles about things that I could bake then go back to sleep because that is exactly what I did.  I slept literally all day yesterday well not just sleep I kinda laid around on the couch and dozed in and out of sleep.  I mean this whole recovery period I haven’t felt as tired as I was yesterday.  Any way it paid off because Sarah showed up around seven and Bret being the awesome man that he is took us to Jason’s deli for dinner and paid for all three of us! I was quite impressed.  Anyway fast forward to this morning I am feeling very rested and Sarah just went off to run to get the car.  LITERALLY. She wanted to go for a run and her car is parked at my place, we spent the night at Bret’s, and off she went.  So I figured I’d squeeze a blog entry in before she gets back pick me up.  I don’t remember if I said this before but I was suppose to go to the beach this weekend with my sister and mother.

Well that’s not happening anymore.  After talking to my sister and having her see how miserable I really was she and I both agreed that I would be happier laying around in bed all weekend relaxing and recovering.  After all I am on day 8 of recovery and I figured by the time this weekend is over I will be good as new and she can have her time with my mom and still have time when she comes back to hangout with Bret and I.

Anyway I didn’t just look at baking blogs and recipes yesterday.  I waited till about 3 pm when Bret got home and decided to whip up some of this delicious vanilla buttercream frosting and this genius two cupcake recipe which literally only makes two vanilla cupcakes, uses one bowl,and is super quick easy and delicious.  

I still have yet to make this dish which I have been literally drooling over for the past three days.  Maybe I’ll make it tonight for dessert who knows but I have had the coconut milk chilling in the fridge for the past three days as well and I’m so curious as to what it is/does.  

I have my post-op doctors appointment today and let me tell you I’m so excited to ask questions like how should I manage my sleep and if I can have a refill of my medication because I literally am down to four painkillers and its killing me!  The only way I can really manage my pain is if i take two pills of painkillers and I have some things I want to get done this weekend which I can’t do if I am in pain.  I also can’t wait to see how he thinks I’m doing because I think I’m doing a damn good job.  

Anyway I hope everyone is having a great day and keep your fingers crossed my checkup goes well!

Anyway happy Friday everyone!

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This is starting to become a habit…

So here I am again bright and early on a Thursday morning!

It is exactly a week to the day that I said goodbye to my tonsils and of course I had my usual 5 am wake-up call of searing throat pain followed by more pain followed by a healthy dose of pain medication.  I, for some reason, tried to be brave around 3 am and instead of taking my prescribed pain medication decided to opt for over the counter Motrin instead.

I make dumb decisions every once in a while and this was definitely one of them, So dumb in fact that I laid in bed in pain thinking you totally deserve this you dumb-ass, and as I woke up in more pain then I fell asleep in, well really the pain that I was experiencing was more pain then I had been in within the last day or week really, but all is right in the world as I have taken my prescribed medication and am feeling like a semi-normal human being again.

How do I know I’m back to normal?

I’m up at 6 am browsing food/baking blogs for recipes of what I want to try to bake today!  I have all the ingredients that you could need to bake and with my sister driving into town today I figured as a tribute to her I would try baking.  As you saw from yesterday I have two whole cheesecakes and eight mini cheesecakes to eat which I figure will be eaten by the time we leave for the beach tomorrow night.  Bret is in a fraternity and boys eat…ALOT.  Mother nature also blessed my sister and I with a little flow to our lives so we of course can’t get enough sweet treats! So my sister should be arriving at my moms around 2 or 3 pm today and then I’m hoping she will spend the night with me as I have a doctors appointment around 2 tomorrow afternoon and I  am not suppose to drive on my meds.  She of course does not know this yet.(evil sister laugh)

Any way I feel like I have too much flour and that means that I must bake something which I’m feeling is going to be something along the lines of cookies or cinnamon buns or cake…yup that’s what I’m going to make! Better yet cupcakes! considering I told Bret I would make him cupcakes yesterday and I never did.  Anyway I wanted to share two of my favorite baking blogs with you they are http://www.howsweeteats.com she is simply hilarious and also where i get a lot of my recipes and the second one is http://www.joythebaker.com  Pictures to come later today hopefully my cupcakes turn out!

Happy Thursday!

The benefits of recovering from surgery

So when I was laying in bed last night and my boyfriend turns to me and says “So what do you want to do tomorrow?”  I instantly responded with a very enthusiastic “BAKE!”  

I don’t think he actually expected me to really bake as much as I did and eighty dollars later this happened.

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I’ve never made cheesecake before but I’ve also never thought baking anything was very hard and I’ve great at following directions so I asked my boyfriend what he wanted me to bake his instant response was of course “I don’t care babe, whatever you want”  I don’t think men understand how incredibly annoying this response is because I’m whatever I’m baking your eating not me well maybe a little bit but furthermore I probed a little more and I started looking at recipees in my bookmarks.  I came across cheesecake and he lit up like a candle so I was like there we go! Cheesecake it is,  Now I couldn’t just make cheesecake cause thats boring so I made two cheesecakes and then came these little devils!

ImageIf your not drooling by now you can just stop reading.  Welcome to chocolate covered strawberry no bake cheesecake.  And of course to top it off they are mini cheesecakes!  I came across these gems on one of my favorite blogs How sweet it is and as soon as I popped them up on the screen the boy started instantly drooling…” You have to make them!!”  So of course I did and they are currently killing me chilling in the fridge.  

So surgery has it’s benefits as you have time off to actually do things you want to do but of course the pain still hurts really really bad.  I have found it really helps alot to sleep with someone so they can be there when things get really bad and you feel like your going to die.  

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That is exactly what happen this morning/last night around 3am.  See Bret knows that I have to take my med’s at exactly four hour intervals specifically overnight or I will literally die and not get any sleep so being the best man in the world he set my alarms for me and made sure I didn’t miss a dose.  Then right around 3 am this morning I woke up an hour before I was suppose to take my medication and I was in so much pain.  The hardest part about a tonsillectomy is sleeping in general.  You only get around 3 hours of sleep at a time and I haven’t had a full 8 hour night’s sleep in a week literally it’s been seven days so when you wake up at 3am in ton’s of pain the last thing you want to do is go back to sleep because you will just wake up again in more pain. 

I literally started crying.  There I was 3am sitting up in bed balling like a little baby and of course I woke Bret up.  He sits up and just gave me a big hug and was like what is wrong.  All I could say was I didn’t want to sleep because it would hurt and he coaxed me back to bed.  It was exactly what I needed at that point.  Maybe that’s why he is getting cheesecake tonight.  Whatever it is I was thankful to have him watching over me at night and I find I sleep better knowing someone is there with me.  Anyway baking is done and it is time for me to relax and enjoy my night.

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I know I know I haven’t written a post in what two whole months! That’s partly because I literally haven’t had time.

It’s not even that I was lazy I have been really freaking busy and don’t worry I will officially catch you up on everything that has been going on in my life.  First things first you will have to excuse my sentence structure or the way I am going to write this as I am currently laying in my bed on drugs.  Not the kind your thinking! I recently underwent surgery to get my tonsils removed last Thursday the 30th of May and the pain medication they gave me makes me feel a bit loopy.

So we left off with my crazy semester full of long papers and intense exams coming up (ie. finals).  So I managed to pass all of my classes I only got one D and of course it was in math but hey its passing and I don’t have to retake it so yeah.  I finished all my papers and the really long manual that I had been writing on how to retrain a rescue horse for the sport of three day eventing ended up being a total of 30 pages typed and I received a B on that.  So all in all the semester is over and I did fine in retrospect.

I also officially joined Sigma Alpha which is the Professional Agricultural Sorority here on campus and I couldn’t be happier to be a part of such a great group of women.  They are extremely helpful whenever I need a friend or a study buddy.  On top of joining Sigma Alpha I also am dating someone finally!  And yes like a serious relationship!  His name is Bret and he is a member of Alpha Gamma Rho who is our brother fraternity.  We started dating at the end of March and we couldn’t be happier to have found one another.  He is like my mirror opposite and we get along better than anyone I’ve ever dated which is a very cool feeling.  You know when you start dating someone and within the first month of real dating you start finding things that they do that annoy the heck out of you?  Yeah he doesn’t really annoy me like that i just kinda accept him for who he is and if we get on each other’s nerves we just say hey stop being a bitch and that’s the end of it.  Anyway we have been together since the end of March and I can’t wait to see what the summer holds for us.  On that note lets talk about the past two months.  

I have recently finished up my first year at University of Maryland and I couldn’t be happier with where I stand in life.  I recently moved out of my old apartment which was about 15 minutes away from campus and I moved within walking distance of the school which is awesome!  I have acquired quite the little group of friends between the sorority and the fraternity.  The week before finals I believe it was around May 10th was my moving day and of course Bret swooped in and saved the day.  Between the two of us and his car we manged to move me from my old place to the new place in something like five hours.  My new house is a very eclectic mix of individuals.  My landlord is a cute little man in his early 60’s from ti-wan and he is the chillest person I’ve ever met.  He basically owns the house I live in and two more houses in DC and he just loves giving back to people and helping them.  Oh and Gardening.

This man loves loves LOVES to garden.  I will have to take a picture of the various tree’s and rose bushes and plants that he has planted around the house.  Much like the mix of people inside the house the plants match perfectly.  So inside my new house I have three people living upstairs all of which are Russian and speak no English and then there are the people in the basement which are all in school at UMD and speak English.  Anyway so here I lie literally I’m in my bed writing this with new surroundings.  

I finally got a bike so now I can choose to stay at my bf’s place which is two seconds away or I can stay at my place and either way I have a way to getting around without having to waste gas!    I can also ride my bike almost anywhere without having to pay for parking or figure out where I am going to park in general.  So I would say that I now have a core group of friends here at UMD which I find is a miracle because I really didn’t see myself as making friends EVER.period..

Don’t ask me why I just have a hard time making friends and keeping them I guess, and not everyone likes to be told they are being annoying straight up.  What can I say some people just don’t appreciate my honesty.  Bitches.

So that pretty much sums up the last two months of life, finals, bf, friends.  

OHHH my sister is coming into town this Thursday night!!  I can not wait to see her and introduce her to all of my friends/boyfriend!!  Like I really can not wait to see her…I think I might pee myself…that excited.  The only downside is the fact that I just got my tonsils taken out last thursday and let me tell you it fuckin hurts!  they are all like yeah it will hurt blah blah blah but they really need to be like look its gonna hurt, it’s gonna hurt LIKE REALLY FUCKING BAD!  I mean when I’m on drugs I’m good and by drugs I mean painkillers, but there are nights/mornings like this morning when I think oh I don’t really need painkillers then I literally wake up at 2AM and am like, “oh so this is what hell will be like”  then I realize that I am still alive and it’s just throat pain.  Anyway thats enough of me blubbering about pain, I have a busy day today, my mama will be coming over when she gets off work to make my room actually look like a room instead of a white walled cell and we can go shopping or get food or whatever then later tonight I’m having some friends over for the first time ever to hang out at my new pad!  I’ll make sure to take pictures of my place so you can see how unique it really is!  Until tomorrow! 

 

Updates are good right?

I know I haven’t written in a while okay, I’ve been busy, and lazy.

Lets see…

I haven’t really done anything impressive,  Just school and friends and parties, ya know the typical stuff.

I spent the weekend catching up with old friends at home.  This week brings so many problems and tomorrow will be catch up Tuesday yet again.  Luckily it’s suppose to snow Tuesday night into Wednesday night almost ten inches! So maybe I’ll catch a break and get a free day to relax,  nothing like a free night off school to enjoy with your roommates!  We have already planned to get the goods (ie. liqour, beer) before hand, so we can properly enjoy ourselves if we do get snowed in.

The rest of the week basically looks like this…

I have an eight page paper due Wednesday so of course I haven’t started it yet

I have to memorize my Alpha Sigma information for the quiz on Monday

Maybe seeing the boy on Wednesday, (I know that was poor planning seeing as it’s suppose to snow)

The rest of the week should be pretty laid back.

This weekend I went to lunch with an old friend on Saturday then took my best friend out for her birthday which was, of course, a blast.  I love my friends from home, it’s just nice to go back home and be able to enjoy myself.  She lives in the country where it’s laid back, quiet and relaxing.  I’m a tad bit jealous of the secluded lifestyle.  Sunday consisted of making breakfast and showering,  then I went over to my old house and re-tried on all my old clothes just to make sure I didn’t want them or didn’t like them which of course 90% of the one’s I tried on I loved so  it was like shopping all over again!  So nice, I now have a complete wardrobe for this coming summer.  Which I can’t wait for by the way.

Anyway thought I should update you all on how my week is going.  Now time to work on this paper. Night!

 

What friends are for…

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Life has a way of slapping you in the face when you start to fall asleep.  Not just when you fall asleep  but when you start to think oh wow my life is so easy and fun.  All of a sudden life drops into your lap and is like “Oh Hi! Remember me? Get to work!!”

Which is exactly what happen to me on Monday night.  After a entirely to full of a day being at school, attending class, meetings, and of course the gym, I was out for the count.  It literally sucked the life out of me.  Tuesday I woke up thinking…OMG it feels like Monday plus a freight train of paper’s to write.  I had fun this weekend going out and taking advantage of my free time but boy did it catch up with me fast.  Next thing I knew I was stuck with two papers to write and a really important test to study for which consumed all of my free time Tuesday.  Which is a lot because I get out of class around 12 on Tuesdays and I always have time to relax but not this week.

Let me explain to you exactly how Doomsday, oh I mean Tuesday, ended up.  I got out of class and went straight home where I literally sat at my desk typing from 12:30 pm to right around 5:30 pm.  About that time I had finished the majority of my papers and only had studying left to do.  So I decided what better time to take a dinner break.  Which turned out spectacularly  I made shake and bake chicken because it was quick and easy.  Of course if you don’t know this about me, I completely lose my appetite when I am stressed out.  Like seriously food makes me nausea just thinking about it or smelling it.  So I had an appetite going into studying for my math test.  By 8 pm my chicken was done sitting at the stove just staring at me, because let’s face it I was way to stressed to eat.  But hey, at least I had it there if I did get hungry.  So my roommates gathered around the kitchen table to help me figure out all my math problems, (if you didn’t know two of my roommates are graduate students, one is a math grad student, and one is a computer science grad student) so I got very lucky because any questions I have either one of them can figure it out and explain it to me.

Meanwhile this whole time I was trying to get done all my work before 6:30 so I could go over the boy’s house (the one I saw over the weekend), to hangout and relax which I desperately needed but I just couldn’t, stupid math.  See life has a funny way of working out because here I was sitting at the table stressing to the max about this test, wishing I had someone here to just talk to that wasn’t a roommate, I just needed a friend.  Then BOOM!  I get a message from one of my best friends on Facebook who I love to death and also had a bad day asking if we wanted to have a night of sulking complaining about our shitty days.  I jumped at the chance,  and next thing you know we are a bottle of wine into talking and chatting just plain old relaxing.  (BTW Ed Hardy makes sangria now? It tastes awesome, just like juice)  I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and ready to take on the day.  I took my test, which I feel I passed,  went to my second class and came home to actually relax.  I just have to say stress really does take a toll on the body, I was almost as exhausted as I was yesterday but I actually got the chance to rest.  Now I am fully rested and feeling better, which is why I’m back to writing this,  and I can’t thank my friend’s enough for all they do for me.  Because even if I don’t like to admit it, sometimes I just need someone to show up with a hug, a massage and some wine, and say “Tell me how shitty your day was?”

I feel so fake when I wear makeup.

 

“Plain women know more about men than beautiful women do.”
~Katharine Hepburn

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So I woke up this morning thinking…Oh god.

It’s Monday. 

So I slept in another fifteen minutes like that is ever a good idea.  I wasn’t running late by any means but I always feel like I am.  So I made my coffee, fixed my hair…(ie. ran a comb through it, and left for class).  As soon as I pulled into the parking garage I looked in the mirror and I was like welp, forgot to put make up on again!  I swear I never wear make up anymore.

I always find myself wondering why I even wear it in the first place, I have nice skin, pretty blue eyes, great hair.  I really honestly don’t even need to wear it.  That of course lead me to wonder all day about when I do and when I don’t wear make up.

The end result was pretty interesting.  I wear makeup at night when I’m going out to a party, or club, around people I don’t really know, and people that I probably will not see the next day.   I think it has something to do with the fact that I really just like the actual art of putting makeup on, I’m an artistic person and I’m very good at doing my own makeup.  But why don’t I wear it around people that I see everyday?

Because I want these people to love me for what I actually am.  Not who I can be, or what I look like.  I mean yes, I am blessed with natural good looks.  Then this thought came to me, when I am going out with a guy for the first time, or when I know he is going to see me for the first time,  I wear barely any makeup.  The reason is because I want him to like me for myself,  If I wake up in the morning next to him, I don’t want him to sit there thinking, who is this girl?  Is that what she really looks like?

I feel fake when I wear makeup.

When I wake up in the morning, I feel beautiful every morning.  That is a bold face lie.  Nobody feels beautiful every morning.  Because sometimes your had a rough night and you look at yourself and your like damn I need to check myself.  I believe there is an art to not wearing makeup.  It really forces you to take care of yourself!  You have to wash your face, brush your teeth, moisturize your face, and eat healthy.  Because lets face it,(No pun intended!) if you don’t your skin is the first thing that will show your late night burger’s.  So ladies embrace the naked truth and just bare it all.

Just for fun here are some pictures of celebrities with and without make up.  Just to make you feel a little better!

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Personally I think they all look more human without makeup!  Especially Hilary Duff and Kristen Steward….Happy Monday!!